MONDAY

Last night I had the most upset stomach ever.  

I miss Ryan and it physically stresses me out a bit.  Yes, I know that it is ridiculous.  

It really sucks though to not be able to touch a person whom you really want to be with. 

He has the most amazing smile and when he laughs he has these really cute laughlines around his eyes.  His eyes are beautiful and his teeth are perfectly straight.  I really like how my hand feels so small in his.  

He'll be here next Friday but only for a really short time and part of me almost doesn't want to see him because then I don't have to miss him when he's gone again.

Sigh.

Beck, Stone Temple Pilots, The All-American Rejects, Lucinda Williams, Paramore, Band of Horses, Neko Case, The Black Keys, Mike Doughty, Ingrid Michaelson, Del Tha Funky Homosapien, Jakob Dylan, !!!, Lee “Scratch” Perry, Xavier Rudd, Anti-Flag, Saul Williams, Joe Bonamassa, M. Ward, The Walkmen, Asylum St. Spankers, Sons & Daughters, Dan Deacon, MIDIval PunditZ, Estelle, Blitzen Trapper, Bedouin Soundclash, Tim Finn, Dale Watson, Ian Moore, Man Man, John Vanderslice, Final Fantasy, The Fall of Troy, Orgone, Brother Ali, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, Forro in the Dark, Ryan Bingham & The Dead Horses, Kid Sister, Wreckless Eric & Amy Rigby, Arthur & Yu, Darondo & Nino Moschella, Pacifika and many more to be announced.

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Needless to say, thus far I am excited.  Aww...Ludacris had to cancel his performance.  What a shame.

My friend posted this in a blog and I loved it so much that I wanted to share it.

Bluebird by Charles Bukowski


there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too tough for him,
I say, stay in there, I'm not going
to let anybody see
you.

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I pur whiskey on him and inhale
cigarette smoke
and the whores and the bartenders
and the grocery clerks
never know that
he's
in there.

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too tough for him,
I say,
stay down, do you want to mess
me up?
you want to screw up the
works?
you want to blow my book sales in
Europe?

there's a bluebird in my heart that
wants to get out
but I'm too clever, I only let him out
at night sometimes
when everybody's asleep.
I say, I know that you're there,
so don't be
sad.
then I put him back,
but he's singing a little
in there, I haven't quite let him
die
and we sleep together like
that
with our
secret pact
and it's nice enough to
make a man
weep, but I don't
weep, do
you?